Nabila

Title: Let It, Snow
Author: Maureen Johnson, John Green and Lauren Myracle
Genre: Romance, Young Adult, Contemporary, Holiday (Christmas)
Publication: September 13th 2014 by Speak, first published October 2nd 2008
Reading format: Paperback
Source: Library
Pages: 365
Goodreads rating: 3.85/5

Books:

1. Let It Snow by Maureen Johnson, John Green, Lauren Myracle


2. Eleanor & Park - Rainbow Rowell


Playlist(s):

1. Christmas & Chill - Ariana Grande






2. NEW YEAR PLAYLIST 😀✨💞 (my Spotify playlist)

At the beginning of this post, I mentioned that I'm excited and scared for the new year. When I'm scared, I usually try to run away from the things that I'm scared of. But the thing is, I can't run from the new year. I have no other option than facing it. Since music is one of the things that help me get through 'stuff' in my life, I thought of creating a playlist for me to get spirited for the new year.

No more starting the first day of school with too much fear (I hope).

My new year playlist contains:

-Are You Gonna Be My Girl - Jet
-Just The Girl - The Click Five
-Dancing Song - Little Comets
-Little Games - The Colourist
-Don't Dream It's Over - Sixpence None The Richer
-Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
-Boys Don't Cry - The Cure
-I Can Only - JoJo, Alessia Cara
-Cynical - blink-182
-Future Looks Good - OneRepublic
-Don't Stop Believin' - Journey
-Girls Talk Boys - 5 Seconds of Summer
-We Will Rock You - Queen
-We Are The Champions - Queen
-Tear In My Heart - Twenty One Pilots
*click to listen*

My favourites among the favourites are Don't Stop Believin', Don't Dream It's Over and We Are The Champions. The old songs are always the best👍



TV Show

Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok-Joo

My latest OTP.

I can't believe I almost delete my blog (again). I am busy even when I'm having a holiday, I thought I will be too busy to update my blog next year, I was having a writing block (I still am) so I thought it was the best to just delete my blog. However, I love this blog too much to straightaway delete it when I was sure so I only made it private. It was a right decision because now my blogging spirit has got better after I went blogwalking and read tons of articles about why I shouldn't delete my blog.

When I went blogwalking, a lot of bloggers have done this TMI tag by Liyana Jasmi. So, since I'm still having a writing block and doing this TMI tag seems really fun, I decided to just do this tag.

#1: What are you wearing?
I'm wearing a dark grey sweatpants, a light grey t-shirt and a beige-colored thick varsity because it's currently raining heavily in here.


#2: Ever been in love?
Nope.


#3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
Does friendship breakup counts?


#4: How tall are you?
161 cm (5'3). I hate this because my friends think I'm too tall but I think it's the average Asian girl's height😑


#5: How much do you weigh?
I gained too much weights after the holiday started. It's 62 kg. Urgh.


#6: Any tattoos?
No, it's haram.


#7: Any piercings?
Nope. But maybe soon.


#8: OTP?
Oooh I have a lot of OTPs. But my personal favorites are Macy and Sam from TBBATT (my fav Wattpad book), Katniss and Peeta from The Hunger Games, The Monday Couple and Luna and Neville from Harry Potter.


#9: Favorite show?
Law & Order, Criminal Minds, and Running Man.


#10: Favorite bands?
5 Seconds of Summer, Kodaline, Coldplay, The Script, Oh Wonder, Paramore, My Chemical Romance, The U2, Queen and BigBang.


#11: Something you miss?
Langkawi. I miss the sea, the foods, the people, the places, everything. I will totally go there again in the future.


#12: Favorite song?
My current favorite is Last Dance by BigBang😁




#13: How old are you?
I'm 15 going on 16! I can't wait to be 16.


#14: Zodiac sign?


#15: Quality you look for in a partner?
Sense of humor, empathy, honesty, reliability and must get on with my family.


#16: Favorite quote?
"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the lights" - Albus Dumbledore.


#17: Favorite actor?
Robin Williams, Johnny Depp, Chris Pine and Will Smith.


#18: Favorite color?
I don't have a particular favorite color so maybe pastel colors and the blue+red combination.


#19: Loud music or soft?
Depends on my mood. Loud music when I'm happy, spirited or need to be spirited. Soft music when I'm calm and need inspiration.


#20: Where do you go when you're sad?
My bed. My bed and I are in a serious relationship.


#21: How long does it take you to shower?
10-15 minutes.


#22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Around 30 minutes.


#23: Ever been in a physical fight?
A lot of times. I'm the only daughter among 5 siblings, I can't really avoid physical fights. But I never have any terrible one.


#24: Turn on?
Kindness, politeness and generosity.


#25: Turn off?
Rude and two faced people.


#26: The reason I joined Blogger?
I have a lot of thoughts but I'm not a really good speaker. I also need a listener back then because my best friends and I parted ways, I have no sister, my Ma is always busy and I thought my brother wouldn't understand me. Now that I have friends to talk to and my brothers turn out to be very understanding (they are my best friends now), maybe that's why I'm having frequent writing block-because now I already have a listener.

But I still can't express everything by speaking, that's why I keep blogging.


#27: Fears?
Losing the people I care about and love, lizards & cockroaches.


#28: Last thing that made you cry?
When I re-watched Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows Part 1 & 2, I don't remember when. I kept saying "Remus gonna die, Tonks too and Fred!!!!!". I cried from the beginning, even when nothing happened, because I knew something gonna happen. I knew who were going to die, what gonna happen, it's just so sad😭 I'm so glad Rowling didn't kill Ron.


#29: Last time you said you loved someone?
When I talked with Ayman (my youngest brother) this morning.


#30: Meaning behind your blog URL?
Bella is from my name - Nabila. Some of my cousins call me Billa but I love Bella more. Bizarre because I'm weird and bizarre kinda rhymed with bella. Bizarre+Bella=bizarrebella.


#31: Last book you read?
Leaving Time by Jodi Picoult. It was kinda slow but I love the plot twist, I didn't expect that! I gave it 4/5 stars in Goodreads because I'm a sucker for unexpected plot twists.


#32: The book you're currently reading?
I'm reading Let It Snow by Maureen Johnson, John Green and Lauren Myracle! Since Christmas is around the corner and I love Christmas stories, so I guess why not? So far, the stories are good. They are so funny and I think my favorite among the three stories are Jubilee Express by Maureen Johnson. I love Stuart!💞


#33: Last show you watched?
Mix & match! One of my close friends are a big fan of iKON and I was infected by the fanatic-ness.


#34: Last person you talked to?
My brother, I asked him to close the bathroom door before he goes to sleep because it's scary.


#35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
Iwana-my best friend. She sent me a picture of a book titled "anak patung NANA".


#36: Favorite food?
Any of my Ma's cooking, especially nasi lemak, nasi ayam, udang masak merah and the cakes.


#37: Place you want to visit?
I want to go to Europe! I really admire the beautiful architecture and I want to go there so badly. A lot of books I read take place somewhere in Europe.


#38: Last place you were?
Home. Mereput di rumah sepanjang cuti huhu.


#39: Do you have a crush?
Currently moving on from a crush. But I do have celebrity crushes. Josh Hutcherson, Chris Pine, Charlie Puth...


#40: Last time you kissed someone?
This morning, I kissed Ayman. He was being super adorable!


#41: Last time you were insulted?
I have 4 brothers, I can't avoid from being insulted because they are boys and that's their nature (except really good boys lah), they insult me pretty much everyday. Just playful insults, though.


#42: Favorite flavor of sweet?
Red guava!


#43: What instruments do you play?
I'm currently learning to play guitar! 😊🎸


#44: Favorite piece of jewelry? 
My necklace.


#45: Last sport you played?
I don't do sport at all😂 I'm not good in it lol. Oh, except if the lontar peluru I was forced to join during the sports day counts.


#46: Last song you sang?
BigBang - If You. That song stuck on my mind everytime it played on Spotify.


#47: Favorite pick up line?
"Are you a camera? Because everytime I look at you, I smile."


#48: Have you ever used it?
No haha.


#49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
An hour ago, I was watching a horror movie with my brother.


#50: Who should answer these questions next?
Anyone who haven't done this tag yet and interested to do it.


Wow, I took almost 2 hours to finish this. 50 questions answered without failure! You may do this tag if you want to, it was fun doing this.

Thanks for reading!

Love,
Pypaa. xo

Dear younger me (the 13 years old one specifically),


Be ready for anything. Now, you might feel like you're on top of the world; with the nice, understanding, cool friends and the feeling of freedom. But you never know how or when these great things that happen to you right now will be gone. Just because this happiness feels like it can last the eternity, doesn't mean it wouldn't end. Everything that occurs in your life will somehow end. Some things do end up in a good way, but some don't. Some words might left unsaid forever and you'll never know the reasons why they end up that way.


Love yourself. You did a lot of mistakes and you'll do some more. Just because of that, it doesn't mean that you don't deserve to be loved by people and yourself. People make mistakes all the time, the only difference between one person with another one is whether they learn from it or not. Be the one who learn from mistakes and try not to repeat them. You often say that we should try to forgive the people who did wrong to us because nobody's perfect and everybody makes mistakes. Why don't you use that on yourself? You should realize that you're just a human, you're far from perfect, and you make mistakes, so you should try to forgive yourself.


It's okay to be sad, feel down and cry out loud for a while. But never let it gets any longer. Never let it gets too far where it reaches the point where you're giving up on yourself. When it gets that far, it's far from okay. Ma might be too busy to listen sometimes, but she'll listen nonetheless. Maybe she wouldn't understand you the way you're hoping she would but try to understand that no one really understands yourself the way you do. So when it reaches the point where you feel like giving up, go to Ma and say right to her face that you need her to listen. Then, let out the things that are burdening you so much and just cry in front of her.

After all, you're the only daughter and she's the only one you get if your girl friends aren't there for you.


It'll going to be okay, sooner or later. So until this phase ends, strengthen your heart and mind 🙆


Love,
future pyps. xo

I'm always inspired by music, so what can I do when my heart forces me to write another top playlist? I guess this'll be a monthly routine because apparently I love suggesting music so much--even if no one asks for it lol. The genre, year published and the singers that stated are various because I am so random.

One correct way to use Bah:

The 'bah' I'm going to talk about is not the big ship 'bah'. It's the famous Sabahan's 'bah'. A lot of non Sabahans are mis-using it (lol). You don't use 'bah' in every sentence, but yes it is used in a lot type of sentences for a certain reason. See, we don't just put 'bah' in everything.

A lot of people that think 'bah' is put in the end of every sentences, but it's actually not. You can't put 'bah' in the end of questions or ayat penyata all of sudden.

Some situations that use bah are:


#1:

"Saya kasi tapau kau nasi lemak ah?"
(Saya tapaukan awak nasi lemak eh?)

"Bah."
(Baiklah/ok)

#2:

*Ali sedang mengusik buku Bakar.*

Bakar: Jangan bah kacau buku saya!
(Jangan lah kacau buku saya!)

#3:

"Kenapa bah kau lambat betul sampai?"
(Kenapa kau lambat sangat sampai?)

"Jalan jammed bah."
(Jalan jammed lah.)

#4:

Cikgu: Bah, siapa yang berani jawab ni soalan, cikgu bagi gula-gula.
(Baiklah, siapa yang berani jawab soalan ni, cikgu bagi gula-gula.)

#5:

"Betul bah kau kasi benar saya guna laptop kau?"
(Betul ke ni kau benarkan aku pinjam laptop kau?)

"Iya, betul bah."
(Ya, betul lah.)

#6:

"Boleh kah saya pinjam pemadam kau?"
(Boleh tak aku pinjam pemadam kau?)

"Boleh bah kalau kau."
(Boleh je kalau kau.)


To conclude, 'bah' is used untuk:
-menggantikan baiklah/ok
-sebagai menguatkan pernyataan
-di permulaan ayat

And, don't use 'bah' in the end question sentences unnecessarily. Contohnya, "apa khabar bah?", "siapa nama kau bah?". The misuses of 'bah' really sounds weird. Just imagine you use 'okay' in every sentences.

"Apa khabar ok?"

"Siapa nama kau ok?"

"Kau nak makan nasi lemak tak ok?"

Weird, right? That's how it feels when people use 'bah' in wrong sentences (kinda). But it's okay if you used it in a wrong way, at least you tried.

CONFESSION 101 HUK HUK HUK.

I was home since Wednesday. And heck the majority of time after I went back were spent on my bed either reading, eating, surfing the internet, watching videos, listening to music, or sleeping. So... productive. Please note the sarcasm. And the worst part is.. I haven't unpack my luggage yet. How pemalas anak dara sorang ni.

Excuse me but I'm still suffering from the after-vacation effect, is that wrong? I've been suffering fever and severe stomach ache for almost four days now, how impressive. I thought about posting about the trip to Langkawi and then my stomach starts doing this weird sound and mencucuk-cucuk motion.

I am scrolling down through my camera roll and looking at the pictures while we were there and playing 5SOS albums on repeat (because I only listened to their songs before, during and after the trip so the songs remind me to Langkawi). I'm obviously not over the vacation yet. But I also love home because it's home and I'm home and I can mereput on my bed watching Miranda's videos laughing like I'm insane.

People, after-vacation effect is the worst (if you feel the full experience of the effect). I ate too much spicy foods when I was there and my stomach ache is still exist after almost 4 days I left Langkawi.

Sorry that I ramble. I just want to update this blog, just because.

Love,
Pypaa.xoxoxoxoxoxo

It has been a long, long time since I posted a playlist to this blog. Since I love music, and music is one of big parts in my life growing up, so I figured that it is good to share what I'm listening with you guys.


#1: DNCE - Jinx

"Yea I want to tell everyone that you are, you are my only one. Screaming at the top of my lungs, but I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering 'cause I don't wanna jinx it."

That moment when Joe Jonas is your bae and he's singing a real good song. I actually love all the songs in DNCE's album but this one is my fav. Second favorite is Toothbrush and Cake By The Ocean because the beats and the tunes are so catchy and freaking-good-to-sassy-dance-to.


#2: Taylor Swift - Dear John

"Well maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame. Or maybe it's you and your sick need, to give love and take it away."

Taylor Swift's songs are practically my childhood. As much as I don't want to admit it, long long time ago, when I was in primary school, I downloaded bunches of Taylor's songs and I'm pretty sure I still memorize the lyrics until now because the songs were overplayed in my phone hew hew. But this song is gold. It is the only song from her Speak Now album that I still have in my phone and replayed over and over again. I love her new style, new songs but I love the country-good-old-days more. The songs back when she was still doing country will have the effect on me.


#3: Bridgit Mendler - Atlantis (feat. Kaiydo)

"Yeah I know how to feel, I know that love exists. It's asleep with the fishes down in Atlantis. Oh my lord, where's my soul? How did we end up like this?"

I love Bridgit ever since Lemonade Mouth. Oh way before that actually. I love her since Alvin & The Chipmunks. And I love her Hello My Name Is... album. So when she made a comeback couple of weeks ago, I was thrilled. I love the music video straight away but not so fond of the new music. It's not really my genre. But then I was obsessed with the music video so I go rewatch it over and over and over again and the song started to grow in me. The meaning is so deep and you have to listen what she is trying to say to fully understand the lyrics.


#4: ZAYN - fOoL fOr YoU *I still can't understand why did Zayn titled all of his song LiKe tHis*

"This love is tainted, I need you and I hate it. You're caught between a dream and a movie scene in a way, you know what I mean."

If there's any time that I'm glad Zayn left One Direction, it is when he makes a real good music. Not stuffs like Pillowtalk, but stuff like this. I actually cried when I heard that he left because I was in the fandom before that. Even when I left the fandom, I could still feel the empty 'seat' he left. The emptiness lingered for quite a while. Apa lagi when they got a break. I am happy for them, really, because they barely get a rest. But I'm just afraid that they would not make a comeback. But really, they should take a break and do what they want to do. If they want to split then they can do that because by now, they have enough experience to know what will happen and they will make some good stuffs.

Eheh I got too far from the Zayn topic hew hew hew.


#5: Coldplay - Up&Up

"How come people suffer? How come people part? How come people struggle? How come people break your heart?"

Coldplay was one of my jams during the sarkest of my life, so they have some effects on me. They make me shiver and chill and in bliss. They make me remember and forget in the same time.


#5: JoJo - Mad Love Album.



JoJo was also my childhood jams. I remembered singing I Hate Love when I was writing my diary (woah what an emo kid). When her Tringle album was out I was thrilled. And it was only three songs. Now, there are more than a song and it's JoJo and I love her voice and I love her and I'm so excited hahaha. Go. Check. Them. Out. In. Youtube. Or. Spotify. They are great, I promise! My personal favs are F*ck Apologies, I Can Only, Mad Love, High Heels, Like This, I Am and I love freaking absolutely everything.


That's all from me today. I'm supposed to study Chemistry because tomorrow is Chemistry final and I love science stream (more like I don't want to be kicked out from science stream and need to study accounting). But now I'm so sleepy so I'm going to sleep for a while and get up earlier and study and *pypaa is rambling*.

Love,
Pypss. xoxoxxxxooooxoxo

I remember when I was a primary school student, my friends and I would talk about the beautiful people gang, the popular clique, and we wanted to be just like them. That was our highest ambition (other than being a group of awesome wedding planners lol). We read Ain Maisarah's Buletin Sri Bangsar and our aim was to be The Wannababes (we didn't even know what that means, it sounded so cool).

Then, we decided to listen to the latest music, change our Facebook's name to a cool name (my name was Fifae Ilae lol and it sticked to me like glue until now, even after I changed it to my real name), post cool Facebook statuses which was quotes back then, customize our profile to look awesome and etc. We tried so hard lol.

Somehow that still influenced me until today. The amount of my Instagram followers, my Twitter followers, the amount of hearts that I got for an Instagram post, and even my Blogger followers, they are like this grenade for me that could blow me up in any seconds. And that's so freaking scary and no matter how I run, I found myself feeling so unworthy and foolish and invisible because of these things. It's not okay.

Then, I think about this. Why do I feel sad?

And it hits me, when I realized that I define myself by these things. And the most stupid thing is, why do I define myself by these things? Am I just that to me? I thought myself worth more than that to me. Am I my Instagram followers? Am I my Twitter followers? Am I just the amount of likes and hearts and comments that I got in some normal simple tweet/instagram post? Am I just that?

The answer is no. It's never a yes.

Just because people don't see what you see, it doesn't mean that you're not worth it. Just because you're not as popular as someone you know, doesn't mean you're nothing. Just because being popular isn't your kind of life, doesn't mean that you have no other reasons to live. You have more reasons to live, and feeling sad and disappointed by these stupid things isn't worth it. You're worth it. You don't need to have people to say it. You're worth it, you're as beautiful as everyone is and you're a universe of something.

You're a universe full of galaxies and planets and stars and just because you don't see it, and just because people don't tell this to your face, it doesn't mean that it's not there. You're a whole lot more than what people define you.

The only person that could define you, is yourself. Hell no sometimes even you can't define yourself. Only God can judge us, really.

So smile, because that means, you know how much yourself worth to you. Only then will people see what you worth.

Love,
Pyps. xoxoxoxoxo

People hurt in so many ways.
Every person carries some weight on their shoulder,
Whether it's seeable or invisible.

People hurt in so many ways.
Everyone knows what pain is.
The difference is what kind of pain it is.
Ones whose feet are bleeding from walking on a sea of thorns,
Wouldn't know the pain of suffocating in the darkness of the sea.

People hurt in so many ways.
And everyone wants to feel the taste of happiness.
A little bit of serenity.
But how are we going to live happily,
When everyone hurts each other just to achieve those selfish goals?

People are hurt in so many ways,
Yet so egoistical to stop being selfish.
It is a scary, sad world we're living in.

Guys exam is coming, what the heck am I doing in here?! Eh give me a break lah. I'm too tired. I might not be at school tomorrow for sports carnival because I hate participating in sports and I just love staying at home. I'd rather stay at home studying than be under the 100 degrees (exaggerating) sun, making myself looks like a fool when I try to play the games I'm totally not good at. Call me kaki bangku or whatsoever but sports and me had been enemies for the longest time ever.

Okay, enough with today's mukaddimah. The title itself is very self-explanatory. If you ask me one of the things I learned from my almost 16 years life, I would say that the worst way of teaching people something by talking behind their back. It is the worst kind of 'teaching'. In fact, it doesn't help at all. Maybe, they'll stop doing the things that you taught them not to do, but some people's self-esteem would probably drop to the lowest point (like me).

Maybe I'm scared of straight-to-my-face big talks, but I'd rather do that than having people talking behind my back about my weaknesses in order to 'teach' me. When I was in primary school, I faced that kind of situation. Instead of telling me nicely about what I did wrong, these people that I trusted so much talked to a lot of people about my weaknesses so that they could 'teach' me. Actually not only during my primary school days that I faced this, I still face this until today.

That kind of situations during my primary school days really killed my self-esteem. Knowing that some of my very trusted people doing that to me, and what people talk about me behind me, it was just so shameful. The implications? I don't trust people anymore. My self-esteem is still very low. I have this very hateful gut towards people that I'm not close with. It still aches until today.

People tend to think that talking about some people's mistakes behind their back would teach those people not to do the same mistakes anymore. Yes. But not in a good way. It's more towards to self-destruction. Not just they stop doing the same mistakes, they might stop doing a lot of other things-including the things that they've always loved to do.

So, people. Whoever you are, no matter how old you are, just because you're greater in some ways (age, personality, beauty, etc.), it totally doesn't give you a right to talk behind other people's back no matter for what purposes. Even if you call it 'teaching', it's actually called backbiting. No matter what the reason is, it's still bring a lot of negative impacts for that people and you yourself, because what you do mirrors yourself.

If some people did a mistake, be the person who tells them nicely about their mistake. Tegur secara baik.

Backbiting is never good, I repeat. Even the Quran and Rasulullah talked about it.

01. I try to sleep.




02. I drink coffee.




03. I take a shower.

Life is funny isn’t it? Just when you think you’ve got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about something, and feel like you know what direction you’re heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is west, and you’re lost. It is so easy to lose your way, to lose direction.

You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you’re doing, where you are, who you’re with, and if you’re OK. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, especially your flaws. You should be with someone who could make you happy, really happy, dancing on air happy.

Our life is made up of time; our days are measured in hours, our pay measured by those hours, our knowledge is measured by years. We grab a few quick minutes in our busy day to have a coffee break. We rush back to our desks, we watch the clock, we live by appointments. And yet your time eventually runs out and you wonder in your heart of hearts if those seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years and decades were being spent the best way they possibly could. In other words, if you could change anything, would you?

INGREDIENTS:

1. 300 g of wheat flour
2. 1 ½ teaspoon of yeast
3. 2 big spoons of white sugar
4. 1 teaspoon of baking powder
5. 3 big spoons of oil
6. Salt (as much as you want)
7. 100 ml of warm fresh milk
8. Mozzarella cheese


STEPS:

1. Mix yeast with 1 spoon of white sugar and some warm water. Leave it for a while until the mixture becomes foamy.

2. Mix flour, oil, 1 spoon of sugar, salt and baking powder. Mix and squeeze the dough together.

3. Pour the warm milk little by little accordingly until the dough is not sticky.

4. Keep kneading the dough even if it's too soft.

5. Put a bowl filled with dough at a hot place to make sure it expands quickly. Leave it for 30 minutes or more.

6. Make circles using the dough and sprinkle some flour. Leave it for 10 minutes and cover the container filled with the little circle doughs with a cloth.

7. Flatten the dough.

8. Put cheese as much as you want.

9. Cover the dough again.

10. Flatten the dough again softly and carefully so that the cheese won't spill.

11. Heat up the non-stick pan and use a minimum amount of fire.

12. Put the flattened dough on the non-stick pan and cover with a lid.

13. Leave the dough until it produces bubbles. When the bottom part of the dough is cooked, turn the dough upside down. When it's fully cooked, Roti Naan Cheese is now ready to be served!

Credit to Resepi Sedap from Facebook. I haven't tried it yet but soon I will, Insha Allah.

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